I Choose You by Sara Bareilles

I heard this song, again, going to work this morning. It's been quite a few months since the last time I heard it on Sirius Satellite Radio. I was getting really good a changing the stations around to avoid this particular song too! Within the first few notes I knew what song it was. My breathing instantly started to get fast and short. My mind filled with the horrors of my last marriage and the abuse that came with it. My eyes began to water as though the flood gates were about to open and unleash a new ocean into my car. Defense mechanisms begin to kick in as I look at all big rigs on the road. I know he has no power to pick the songs on the radio, at any certain time, but it's just part of my PTSD. I hate that song! I hate what it was suppose to stand for! I hate the memories that follow in it's words! I hate him! I hate the memories! I hate it all!

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