Love Me Not

Today is Friday. As I reflect back on the last few months, I found that I have accomplished much. I'm back to work full time after another hip surgery. I'm very humbled by everyone in my life. There's a very special place for everyone who has stood beside me over the last few years. My place of employment has got to be one of the greatest places to work. My boss has seen me on the door steps of hell because of my ex-husband. He has seen me tumble down the path of self-destruction due to a man that said he loved me and I believed him. I just completed my full first week of work. I am completely exhausted and in extreme pain. But the joyous reception that I received at work, upon my return, was fantastic. When they said that they missed me and wanted me back... They weren't joking! I struggle everyday with looking across the street where my ex-husband was employed. Or is employed. I really can't say that I know for sure of that status. I thought I saw him several t...

I swear that I

No matter how hard I try, I can't unlove him! I can't forget him! I can forgive him, but I can only remember each kiss covered his revenge against me and my family. When vehicles break down, I want to call my ex but I can't. I call my friend "Walker" and he helps us though. I look into "Walker's" eyes and they are gorgeous! He's a born and raised San Diego surfer who planted himself in the desert. Lucky us! His occupation is in high demand and he works about 60-75 hours a week. In the sun no less! I swear each time I see him he his 10 shades darker than the last time I saw him. My ex, and his continuous encouragement, helped me fall in love with motorcycles. I miss those moments when we could just enjoy each other's company. Yet, it was all in his master plan to destroy my family. "Walker" has a motorcycle as well. He knows what I've been through over the last 2 years so he tries to avoid things that trigger my PTSD. He...