Love Me Not

Here's how the story started... Take me to the story . A family of wild horses baited by the BLM on November 29, 2019 . Pine Nut Wild Horse Advocates is remaining tireless in a dispute over 21 wild mustangs that were baited and trapped by the BLM. Please join us in this fight to have the BLM release the horse to a sanctuary. The BLM refuses to honor their duty to the people, and to the land. Please call all your elected officials and ask them to support Pine Nut Wild Horse Advocates in getting the families to sanctuaries who are willing to take them. Join Wild Horse Tales on Facebook for all the latest developments. We know that we cannot save all the wild mustangs. We are just asking for the Wild 21 that we all have taken care of without the BLM. Samson's band. Samson, Dumplin, Cinnamon and Apple. Sam in not in Photo. Ol Mamma-25 years old Camille, Jackson, Fury, Rikki, and Shadow Dumplin and Sam Rusty with Belle, Luke, Amber, and Cinnamon Shadow ...

I heard this song, again, going to work this morning. It's been quite a few months since the last time I heard it on Sirius Satellite Radio. I was getting really good a changing the stations around to avoid this particular song too! Within the first few notes I knew what song it was. My breathing instantly started to get fast and short. My mind filled with the horrors of my last marriage and the abuse that came with it. My eyes began to water as though the flood gates were about to open and unleash a new ocean into my car. Defense mechanisms begin to kick in as I look at all big rigs on the road. I know he has no power to pick the songs on the radio, at any certain time, but it's just part of my PTSD. I hate that song! I hate what it was suppose to stand for! I hate the memories that follow in it's words! I hate him! I hate the memories! I hate it all!

I just wanted to remind myself that my life is important! I'm an important person! As a reminder of what the last few years of hell have been like, I'm just going to publish my unfinished drafts that I made on the computer. Heaven knows that I have hundreds of pieces of paper floating around that are my daily thoughts though. I'll never understand how a man can hate me for 25 years, marry me, and plot a revenge to tear my family apart. I've done nothing but study the behaviors of a narcissist for 2 solid years! There's no changing a person with that mental state. We have met every goal that we set this last year. When you have gone through an abusive relationship, as horrific as the one we were in, you just want the nightmares to stop! Materialistic things that have a negative impact on your recovery need to be replaced. Yesterday, the 3rd vehicle was replaced. Although we have one more vehicle to go, that's not bad at all! So here I am, still alive, wond...

It's Labor Day weekend and I'm thankful for my garden. Gardening is the one outlet that I have readily available for calming my nerves. My ex-husband ruined every holiday for an entire year...They still haunt me every day. !

Today is Friday. As I reflect back on the last few months, I found that I have accomplished much. I'm back to work full time after another hip surgery. I'm very humbled by everyone in my life. There's a very special place for everyone who has stood beside me over the last few years. My place of employment has got to be one of the greatest places to work. My boss has seen me on the door steps of hell because of my ex-husband. He has seen me tumble down the path of self-destruction due to a man that said he loved me and I believed him. I just completed my full first week of work. I am completely exhausted and in extreme pain. But the joyous reception that I received at work, upon my return, was fantastic. When they said that they missed me and wanted me back... They weren't joking! I struggle everyday with looking across the street where my ex-husband was employed. Or is employed. I really can't say that I know for sure of that status. I thought I saw him several t...

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